They didn\u2019t expect me to lead the log flume.
\nTo make them stay on for another pirate ship.
\nTo lean back on the helter skelter
\nand raise my hands in victory.<\/p>\n
When they asked me in the car, I told them.
\nWe never went to fairs. The older ones
\nmight have gone but when I came along
\nthat was done. I turned up a song of theirs<\/p>\n
to fill the silence that couldn\u2019t be filled.
\nThen I told them. But I went to fairs, later,
\non my own. And I went on all the rides,
\nin those black clothed teenaged years, <\/p>\n
hunting shadows in the flashing lights,
\npretending to be with that group to all
\nthe watching eyes. Silent. Desperate to go faster.
\nNot screaming. Never. Not until today.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
They didn\u2019t expect me to lead the log flume. To make them stay on for another pirate ship. To lean back on the helter skelter and raise my hands in victory. When they asked me in the car, I told them. We never went to fairs. The older ones might have gone but when I […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":232,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_is_tweetstorm":false,"jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":[]},"categories":[346,349],"tags":[],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"yoast_head":"\n